Any time I am unduly lax in the taking of my antidepressants for too long, it takes 4-5 days of consistency to get back to a more tolerable headspace. Today is day 3.
I try to just keep reminding myself that this temporary. It’s very easy to go to far and think about how everything is temporary and then start thinking too much about death.
I try to remind myself of times when I’ve felt better, and how I’ve always gotten through this before: I will feel okay again. I will get through this. But still, there is the experience of it right now, and it sucks.
"Mindfulness" is supposed to help. I really don’t want to be more aware of how I feel right now. If I just sit here and concentrate on my breathing, I’ll probably end up lying down and asleep. But, you know what? That sounds all right. Acceptable. I’ll get through another day.