Pain is meant to be useful, to provoke a reaction that removes the source of the pain because it is doing harm to us. The pain that comes along with depression is diffuse. It’s impossible to locate a spot in the body where it originates. It’s just everywhere. That makes it difficult to determine what the harm is, and what to change to make it go away.
For some pain, there is no effective painkiller. No analgesic.
I’ve made a to-do list. Many of the things on it are incredibly simple: “Low hanging fruit.” Maybe checking things off will make me feel a little better. Maybe it will just help keep me distracted. Either would be fine.
I need to be more diligent about taking my antidepressants. The problem with taking them at night is sometimes I fall asleep without following my nightly routine—especially nights when my son is with his mom. I have a hunch I’ve missed a couple of doses lately, and that really doesn’t help.