A Dream Like Mine

  1. So, what are you doing today?

    I’m just waiting out my anxiety before going over to an old friend’s house for barbecue and pool party. I’ll be fine once I get there and hang out for a few minutes. Right now, I’m the tense grip of irrational anxieties.

    I’m worried my car will overheat. (Unlikely.) I’m worried *I* will overheat. (More likely, even with a pool.) I’m worried I’m going to accidentally fall asleep before it’s time to go and sleep through the while thing. (Yeah, weird anxiety, but it has happened to me before. Multiple times.) I’m worried about coordinating picking up my son from his grandparents. I’m worried about making a phone call to his grandparents because phone anxiety augh augh augh even though they are fine nice pleasant people augh phone hate phone.

    If it weren’t for beta blockers, I’d be a basket case. Fortunately, I’m only thinking like a basket case, not feeling so much like one. Still all tensed up, but my heart isn’t racing. Thank you, propanolol. 

    So, what are you guys up to?

    2. Posted 9 months ago 35 notes

    1. jewlesthemagnificent answered: My Dad is SO phone phobic, it isn’t even funny. I tried telling him that was an actual thing and he said HE’S normal, everyone else is weird.
    2. naimhe answered: OH god I love that stuff! Makes me able to use the phone and go to WalMart. Not that anyone should want to go to WalMart but…you know.
    3. -clu- answered: Having a nice day off hiding from other humans.
    4. prarieramblings answered: Just returned from a long trip - and I take a beta blocker as well
    5. embracingthelost answered: I take propanolol too! Only, I add an extra “lol” when I say it because it’s more fun to say “propanololol”!
    6. frageelay answered: I love you, and I’m so sorry you have to deal with this, but grateful you keep going, and sharing.
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