A Dream Like Mine

  1. Today is my last appointment with my counselor

    Not because I’m “done”, but because the budget cuts in Arizona have caused her clinic to downsize. She’s being let go, because she’s lower in seniority than the others there.

    I’m in a position right now where I’m a beneficiary of all those taxes I paid into the system while I was working—still hoping (perhaps in vain) to become productive again. But that makes me vulnerable to state budget cuts. Some things have definitely improved while I was working with Alissa. Now, I’m going to be stuck for a while.

    Now I’ll have to reapply through the state program, and it’ll take months to get in with someone. And even then, it’s no guarantee they’ll be a good fit for me therapeutically. Therapy is like any relationship: you’re not going to mesh well with everybody. My last therapist before Alissa, was useless to me, though I’m sure she was able to help others. Just not me, not where I’m at in my life these days.

    I’m sad and angry and frustrated.But I also know I’ve still got the benefits of all the work I’ve done in the past year. Including being able to recognize that I’m sad and angry and frustrated, when mostly Im just feeling numb.

    2. Posted 7 months ago 35 notes

    1. karinanotcinerina said: Ah shit!!! I am so sorry!!! HUG! Perhaps she will find a new practice and keep you on…?
    2. lyall said: Sorry to hear this. I hope you’re able to keep applying whatever you got out of therapy so far in the meantime.
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