A Dream Like Mine


  1. Haiku For The Desert Sky

    You were blue today
    So I told you, “You look nice.”
    And you were still blue.

  2. My home was not that yellow house
    Where my mother took to alcohol
    To quell the pains that I am only now
    Given to understand.

    My home was the yard behind it
    On moonless nights
    With 6,000 stars overhead
    Where I’d find peace.

    You can never go home again
    Wrote Thomas Wolfe—how did he know
    They’d build up my hometown
    And need more streetlights?

    Now my home is a Brigadoon
    That returns on that rare night
    When power fails
    Under clear skies.

  3. What Survives by Rainer Maria Rilke

    artemisdreaming:

    promethean-eyes:

    Who says that all must vanish?

    Who knows, perhaps the flight
    of the bird you wound remains,
    and perhaps flowers survive
    caresses in us, in their ground.

    It isn’t the gesture that lasts,
    but it dresses you again in gold
    armor —from breast to knees—
    and the battle was so pure
    an Angel wears it after you.
     
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    Artemis: Thank you, promethean-eyes and journalofanobody.  Beautiful.   :)
  4. Jenny Kissed Me, Leigh Hunt

    Jenny kissed me when we met,
    Jumping from the chair she sat in;
    Time, you thief, who love to get
    Sweets into your list, put that in:
    Say I’m weary, say I’m sad,
    Say that health and wealth have missed me,
    Say I’m growing old, but add,
    Jenny kissed me.

    (via cleversimon)

  5. Yep. This.

    Yep. This.

  6. In Memory of Those Who Will Give All

    In memory of those who will give all
    Fighting future wars,
    Still just children,
    Now just children
    Playing at games of war,
    I shed these tears for your parents’ hearts broken.

  7. tj:

    ~Depression, too, is a kind of fire - Taylor Mali~

    kalamazu replied to your quote: The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who…

    There’s a Taylor Mali poem called “Depression, Too, Is a Kind of Fire.” Sounds a bit like this.

    Wow, I hadn’t heard this before. The above embed is not a video, but audio of the author (I assume) reading this poem. (There’s an audiobook available.)

    Thanks. Here’s the poem.

    I’m an idiot because once
    before we were married she asked me whether I knew
    that we would not be having children
    if we did get married, and I said yes.

    And because she knew I was lying,
    she asked if I was really okay with that.
    And because I’m an idiot I said yes again.

    And once during a fight, not married
    more than two years, she said she felt like my first wife,
    and I, like an idiot, assured her that she was.

    She worked out at the gym five times a week
    and smoked as many packs of ultra lights,
    and I’m an idiot because when I asked her why,
    She said, Because I hate myself and I want to die.
    And I laughed and said something I don’t recall,
    something completely and utterly insufficient.

    From the roof of our apartment,
    I saw 40 or 50 people jump from the towers
    on a Tuesday morning—we used to be able to see them to the south,
    just as, to the north, we can still see
    (and by “we” I guess I mean now just me)
    the Empire State Building,
    which still steeps me in gratitude
    because I’m an idiot—
    out of the smoke with arms flailing.
    And I swear I saw a perfect swan.

    And I was going to write a poem
    about how fire is the only thing
    that can make a person jump out a window.

    And maybe I’m an idiot for thinking I could have saved her—
    call me her knight in shattered armor—
    could have loved her more,
    or told the truth about children.

    But depression, too, is a kind of fire.
    And I know nothing of either.

    Reblogging for some future moment when I need to remember.

  8. Freedom. It isn’t once, to walk out
    under the Milky Way, feeling the rivers
    of light, the fields of dark—
    freedom is daily, prose-bound, routine
    remembering. Putting together, inch by inch
    the starry worlds. From all the lost collections.

    -Adrienne Rich. Thanks for the infinite reminders and their measures. (via thesummerking)

    RIP Adrienne Rich

    (via sniffyjenkins)

    (via sniffyjenkins)

  9. ☛ Adrienne Rich, feminist poet and author, dies at 82.

    girl-non-grata:

    Excerpt from Diving Into the Wreck

    And now: it is easy to forget
    what I came for
    among so many who have always
    lived here swaying their crenellated fans
    between the reefs
    and besides
    you breathe differently down here.

    I came to explore the wreck.
    The words are purposes.
    The words are maps.
    I came to see the damage that was done
    and the treasures that prevail.
    I stroke the beam of my lamp
    slowly along the flank
    of something more permanent
    than fish or weed

    the thing I came for:
    the wreck and not the story of the wreck
    the thing itself and not the myth
    the drowned face always staring
    toward the sun
    the evidence of damage
    worn by salt and away into this threadbare beauty
    the ribs of the disaster
    curving their assertion
    among the tentative haunters.

  10. The year you thought you were dying
    was a really great year.

    You ate licorice on the beach in January,
    swam rum sauced in the icy Pacific
    wearing only blue rubber flippers
    and your grandfather’s dog tags
    and for the first time, it felt good to be cold,
    it felt good to be so cold it hurt.

    You doted on pigeons and stray cats.
    You ate honey peanuts in the park
    and re-watched every movie that ever made you
    cry, including Steve Martin’s The Jerk.
    You tattooed your entire body in Pablo Neruda
    translations and cherry blossoms.

    You blew all your money on comfortable shoes
    and one of those mattresses made from NASA space foam.
    You slept the sleep of assassins and kings—remorseless.

    You bought chocolate bars from all the kids who came
    to your door and stock-piled them in your broom closet.
    You left them in your will to THE SECRETARIES,
    every last one of them.

    You volunteered at the local senior center playing bingo.
    When you won you forced to whole room to take shots of
    Welch’s grape juice and sing the national anthem.

    And you spent time with your favorite lover.
    You let him get close.
    Secret suicide note, nonsense alibi close.
    shampoo scent dissection close.

    Close enough to memorize your tells,
    hand you your ass at pillow poker,
    make your defenses look like the silly decoupage
    of paper angels and Victorian roses that they were.
    Close enough that your laughter
    punched him with mint gum puffs.
    Close enough that his sighs drove circles
    in the parking lots of your sighs,
    close enough to measure your ribcage
    in wrists, your palms in lips.

    So close, you didn’t even notice
    your heart speed up, then stop,
    when he kissed you so hard,
    when the New Year’s ball dropped down.

    “The Year You Thought You Were Dying,” Mindy Nettifee (via highwayaisle)

    Absolutely gorgeous.

    (via undercovernun)

    (via undercovernun)

  11. I Ask for Silence by Pablo Neruda

    thesensualstarfish:

    Now leave me in peace 

    and learn to do without me. 

    I am going to close my eyes. 

    And I want five things only, 

    five chosen roots. 

    Once is an endless love. 

    The second is to see the autumn. 

    I cannot be if the leaves 

    don’t fly and fall to earth. 

    The third is the solemn winter, 

    the rain I loved, the caress 

    of fire on the wild coldness. 

    In fourth place, summer 

    plump as a watermelon. 

    The fifth thing is your eyes. 

    Matilde, my dear love, 

    I will not sleep without your eyes, 

    I do not want to be if you’re not looking at me: 

    I’d give up spring 

    for you to keep on looking at me. 

    That, friends, is all I want. 

    Nearly nothing, and almost everything. 

    Now you can go if you wish. 

    I have lived so much that some day 

    you will have to forget me forcibly, 

    rubbing me off the blackboard: 

    My heart went on forever. 

    But because I ask for silence, 

    don’t think that I’m going to die. 

    On the contrary: 

    It happens that I’m going to live. 

    It happens that I am, and I’m going on. 

    So it will only be inside me 

    that grains will grow, 

    first the sprouts thrusting through 

    the earth to see the light, 

    but mother Earth is dark: 

    and inside I am dark: 

    I am like a well on whose water 

    night leaves its stars 

    to go on alone across the fields. 

    It’s a question of having lived so much 

    that I want to live that much more. 

    I never felt my voice so clear, 

    never so rich in kisses. 

    Now, as always, it is early. 

    Light flies with its bees. 

    Let me alone with the day. 

    I ask leave to be born.

  12. one could do worse than be a swinger of birches.

    Truth.

  13. Broad and Yellow is the Evening Light by Anna Akhmatova

    thesensualstarfish:

    Broad and Yellow is the Evening Light by Anna Akhmatova

    Broad and yellow is the evening light
    Tender the April coolness
    You are so many years late,
    Nevertheless I am glad you came.

    Sit here close to me
    And look on joyfully:
    Here is a blue composition book
    With the poems of my childhood.

    Forgive me that I ignored the sun
    And that I lived in sorrow
    Forgive, forgive that I
    Mistook too many others for you.

    Anna Akhmatova (1889 – 1966)

  14. Earth, my dearest, oh believe me, you no longer need your springtimes to win me over … unspeakably, I have belonged to you, from the flush.
    Rainer Maria Rilke. (via espacevide)

    (via thesensualstarfish)